Candy and Flowers and Teddy Bears, OH MY!

Wow. It's almost that time again... time for couples to shower each other with love in the form of romantic gifts or dinners for two... and time for those of us who are single to quickly get into a relationship so that we're not left out of the gushy festivities. I do mean Cupid's holiday: the big V Day.

All around my college campus, I see people who are happily "in love." They hold hands as they walk down the Horseshoe, cuddle on the benches outside, and kiss each other goodbye in the dorm lobby. Yuck.

It makes me sick! And, yes, it's because I'm one of the (it seems like) few unlucky single girls here.

It's so frustrating! I'm almost 20, and I have yet to have a boyfriend on Valentine's Day, let alone a serious boyfriend at all. All the guys I seem to fall for are jerks and asses, so my relationships have either not lasted very long or were mostly one-sided... mine being the side that put in any effort. When do I get to feel how every other girl in the world feels on this most wonderful of holidays?

How is it that one day devoted to love can make a girl feel like such a waste of life? I'm pretty sure that any girl reading this would understand what I mean by that. If you've ever been single on Valentine's Day and really wished you weren't, then it can feel like the whole world is out to get you; that if you aren't in a relationship, you don't get to take part in a National Holiday like this one. I guess I can compare it to how a person on a diet might feel at Thanksgiving, the most stuff-your-face holiday of all. Being single on Valentine's Day makes it seem like everyone and their mother is in an amazing relationship and that, even though you might want to have a special someone, you just can't.

However, some people claim not to care about Valentine's Day. I don't believe them for a second, though. I don't care how secure you are in your singleness, you can't seriously tell me that seeing all those couples "in love" doesn't make you wish you were in a relationship, too. Or at least make you want to barf up your candy hearts.

So really, I guess all that we single-folk can do on Valentine's Day is take one step at a time, breathe deep breaths, and conquer every minute as it comes our way. You can also do what I'm doing: have a No-Boys-Allowed Movie Night and go see a chick flick. And just remember, don't wear pink, red, or any variant of those two colors.

Vote!!!

Hate is Such a Strong Word

Right at this very moment, I should be studying for my AP Euro test, but I really don't feel like it. I am to tired and too bored and two psyched about the Spring Musical (which starts tomorrow, btw), and I don't feel like studying!

I hate studying. SO MUCH I can't even tell you.

All I really have to do is read through my notes again, but I'm too fidgety and too awake to do so... probably because I have so much caffeine in my system.

This is how THAT happened:

I was on my way home from youth group, and I stopped at Starbucks to get a grande white mocha latte, and I went to pick it up at the pick-up section, and the guy was like, "Do you know whose venti this is?" I was like, "nope. I have no idea." He said, "You can have it then." So I asked what it was and he told me that it was a caramel macchiato. I had never had one, so I tried it and like it, so I took it with me. The white mocha lattes don't usually have too much caffeine in them, but, apparently the caramel macchiato did. So I'm pretty much WIRED.

And that makes for a DIFFICULT STUDY SESSION.....

They should put warnings on the Starbucks coffee cups: DON'T DRINK IF YOU PLAN ON SITTING STILL!!!!!

Peace out, lovies!

Some Poems I've Written

Tell me what you think of them:

"Being a Freshman"

I’m stuck to the ground where I stand,

Mute, unable to speak.

I would try, but I don’t know

If what I say

Will make them mad.

Because who knows what they might do

Because I’m stuck to the ground,

Mute.

"Ethereal Thoughts"

My mind whirled with its capricious thoughts

And I wondered what I might do.

As I thought and I thought my ethereal thoughts,

The allure of the crux had become too much

And I wondered what I might do.

I could not circumvent the implacable thoughts

That tortured my whimsical mind.

So there I stood,

Wondering if I should

Succumb to the thoughts that troubled me.

Limericks (You probably won't understand the last two unless you go to my school):

There once was a man named Macbeth

Who thought he could cheat past his death.

He then saw the tree,

And said, “How could this be?”

And soon he would take his last breath.

A man named Barba taught Stat

And he always knew where it’s at.

He would talk about Dirk,

He’d tell jokes and he’d smirk.

Then he’d sing us a song ‘bout a cat.

There once was a girl with a cough

Who said that I liked to scoff.

But when I denied,

Her mouth would go wide:

“Are you trying to piss me off?”

are you TRYING to piss me off? haha

So that's what this girl, Kim, in my English class always says. But she's joking.
I'm sitting in English, 8th period, the last 45 mins. before winter break, and there's a sub in my class. I can't wait to be home because I have had a headache since third period. And now Kim, Amanda, and I are talking about if time really does slow down if you spin really fast counter-clockwise, or if the earth slows down or if anything happens at all. BTW---this is in relation to the comic on the previous post.
It's a pretty intense discussion. Hahaha.

As Geeky As This Is...

...It's still so sweet. I think I'm a hopeless romantic.

And That's My New Philosophy

I have no life! I am constantly awake and doing something. It's kind of funny, because most of the time I'm just procrastonating and not doing homework, or I'm watching TV or on the computer. But I do have other things going on....like college music auditions and play practices and choir practices and damned hw.....but when I'm not doing any of that stuff, I'm doing nothing and complaining about how I have no time to do anything and that I'm always up til God-knows-when in the morning. I think I'm nocturnal.....That could be interesting.
But I did buy some books on BN.com and sheet music from Sheetmusicplus.com tonight. I'm so excited! ha. I'm just a geek like that. :)